I am a Glass-Half-Full kinda girl.
But just in case you happen to think that things are always wonderful around here, our day today was anything but! Here’s just a snapshot of some of the issues we had:
- boys fighting with each other
- boys arguing
- boys yelling
- boys not listening well
- boys not being respectful
- boys having bad attitudes
- MOM – letting it all get under her skin!
- MOM – yelling at said boys!
Just to add a little perspective… some of the yelling and fighting happened during an evaluation I was doing for a home-schooler (embarrassing!!). Some of the not-listening-well happened during our field trip to meet Dr. Edgar Mitchell, one of the Apollo 14 astronauts (embarrassing!!).
Why was I so embarrassed? Because I have an image I want to maintain! I want to look right. I want everyone to think I’m a good mom. I want everyone to think I’ve got it all together. It’s all about the external. That thinking is rubbing off on the boys, too. I know one of them will hit the roof if he finds out I’ve posted this blog!
Time to look on the inside,
because that’s what God says is most important.
“The LORD does not look at the things man looks at.
Man looks at the outward appearance,
but the LORD looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7
I heard Dr. Elmer Towns talking about fasting on a radio program this week.
He said, “It’s not about what goes into your mouth. It’s about what comes out of your heart.”
So, in the spirit of transparency, I need to get the pride out of my heart!
- I think that what others think of me matters most – wrong.
- I think I can change boys’ behavior – wrong. God does that, and God needs to be my focus.
- Because I was focused on me and what others were thinking, I did not respond the right way to my boys today – wrong.
- Therefore I missed an opportunity to model a Godly response – wrong.
God’s working on me. I’m walking this faith-journey with all of you. Just wanted to be real with you all.
I’m glad His mercies are new every morning! (Lamentations 3:22-24)